“With God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26
I started the day with my usual request for God to give me His thoughts and His words to share with His people as they called the 3ABN prayer line. The time I spent driving the ambulance and rescue truck in the Santa Rosa Ca. Fire Department also helped prepare me for my first prayer call that morning.
“I’m Too Far Gone”
The first words I heard on the phone that morning were, “I don’t know why I called you because you can’t help me.”
My response must have gotten her attention. “You’re right,” I said. “I can’t help you, but God can.”
I asked for her name and her prayer request, assuring her that if we would ask God together, He would help her. But what Kim* said next got my attention.
“I have been praying to God for eight months to help me, but He won’t. I’m to far gone, so I’ve decided to end my life.”
I quickly told Kim that I had never heard of anything that God could not handle so I really needed to know what that might be.
Kim began by saying she was hopelessly addicted to cigarettes, alcohol and occasional drugs, and that for over a year her efforts to quit had continually ended in failure. Each night she would fill her pack of cigarettes with water and throw them into the garbage, but the next day she would buy another pack thinking it would bring her peace. By the end of the day she would be angry with herself once again for being such a weakling, and would fight back by wetting her remaining cigarettes and tossing them in the garbage again. She had thrown a thousand dollars into the garbage this way in the past year.
It was the same with alcohol. As the weekend approached she would stock up for the joy of it all. But the next morning there was no joy as she realized she had destroyed another batch of brain cells by drinking the night before. Then, as the tears rolled down her face, she would fight back by pouring the rest down the drain, only to do it over again and again.
Although Kim never bought drugs, people would offer them to her for free if she would join in. She gave in hoping to find peace or joy or happiness but the drugs always left her feeling empty. Kim told me that she had begged God day and night for eight months, often in tears, to take away these desires, but that He had done nothing.
“Our Gift of Love”
“Kim,” I began, “There is no greater love than for a man to lay down his life for a friend, and Jesus laid down His life for you. (John 15:13) You have your best friend In Jesus who has given you the greatest love possible. Would you like to show your love for Him?”
“Yes, I would,” she said, “but I don’t know how.”
“Well, Jesus tells us how in John 14:15, where He says, ‘If ye love me, keep my commandments.’” I replied. “You see, Rather than just taking our sins from us, Jesus also allows us the privilege of giving up our sins as our gift of love to Him.” Then I invited Kim to give life another try, and that this time we would pray together weekly that her love for Jesus would grow until she could make loving choices that would bring joy to His heart as He strengthened her.
“I would like that very much,” she answered.
I’m happy to say that today Kim has the victory through her love for Christ who strengthens her!
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13.