Thankful It’s Him and Not Me

It was not the type of Sabbath behavior that reflected Christ. As a matter of fact, it was down right embarrassing. It was Sabbath morning and an argument had broken out in our home that went from bad to worse. Satan was up to his tricks again and we had fallen for them. It had escalated to such a point that we actually went our separate ways, some to one church and the rest another. Here we were; leaders of a church plant and acting like a bunch of spoiled babies.

During potluck dinner, my husband, James, was approached by a person inquiring about the Lord’s work in Niagara Falls. He shared the many outreach projects we were working on and the way God had been leading and blessing. During the conversation, he was asked what needs our plant had. The biggest need at the time was a van. Trying to pickup 25-35 kids in small cars was very challenging. We had been searching for a cheap used van that would at least run and do the job. Upon seeing this great need, a commitment to purchasing a van for the ministry was made.

Jim came home and shared with me the good news. We were going to get a van! My mind instantly recalled how foolish and ridiculous we had behaved, especially me. What puzzled me even more was how it could be. We didn’t deserve it. How could He be blessing us with a van the way we were acting? It really did not make any sense. So gently, God impressed me that the greatest thing we have to be thankful for was that in spite of what we really deserve to receive, we gain great riches and blessing because of the merits of Jesus Christ. Everything we attempt is worthless, it is only by God’s grace and love that we are allowed to co labor with Him. It is not about me, it is about Him and His Glory. When we catch a glimpse of who He is and who we are, we are truly thankful for His abundant love and grace. “In this the love of God was manifested toward us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through Him. In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins.” (1 John 4:9-10 NKJV) I am so thankful that God allows us to be His vessels even though more times than I would like to admit, I am unworthy. I am eternally thankful that it isn’t about me, because when those times come and God allows me to see the real me, it can be truly embarrassing. Most importantly, I am truly thankful that he loves me even when at times I act foolish and misrepresent Him, I have never deserved it and that makes me love Him even more for His love.

Shortly after, we picked up the new vehicle, a 2008 Ford 12 Passenger van. It was more than we could have asked for! Thank you to that special person who now makes it possible everyday for kids and adults to come and learn about Jesus. Thank you Jesus for the miracles you give us each day and for your precious blood, that makes us worthy and beautiful.

My name is Christina Webber. My husband is James Webber. Currently he is church planting in Niagara Falls, NY for the New York Conference and I am assisting him. I am passionate about youth ministries and evangelism. We have three children; Courtney, Gabrielle, and Jonathan.

Christina Webber

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